The Pressure of the Process

Today Jennifer Buckholdt shares her sweet story of surrender and how there is pressure in the process.

The Ride

It was a vision. One of me in a raft, going upstream on a raging river. Of course, the struggle was real. Overtook with exhaustion and weariness, I was determined never to give up. Challenged to release this raging battle, I finally turned my body around inside the raft and let go. As my body and soul soared with the waves, no harm befell me. I accepted the ride with joy rather than fear.

Fighting Battles

For the past two years, I’ve been fighting a battle I was afraid of facing. God taught me how to fight when it was time to fight and to release and remain in Him when that time came. “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you.” Psalm 32:8 ESV.

Surrendering

After fighting with force for so long, I released it back to God. Trusting that He would continue to fight for me. Talking with a friend, it was realized that our faith is stretched and grows when we can no longer feel or see what God is doing, releasing ourselves from knowing, and accepting what He is doing.

Victory

As I patiently wait for the outcome, I see how God has already brought victory in me. Fighting for myself initiated boldness, confidence, and assertiveness. These character changes opened doors for leading two ministries at the Church. I developed a peace of mind and soul that positively affected how I love and raise my children. Gone are the days of fear preventing me from living. A dependence on God so great that I’m able to know His voice and trust my discernment.

The Lesson

Of course, the pressure of the process caused intense cracking to the point of breaking. It’s here I learn that God uses the broken. Until we finally release, He, our creator, can’t fully teach us in the way we should go. I am assured and can trust that God will counsel my every step, as I feel His loving eye upon me.

Meet Jennifer

Jennifer Buckholt is a leader and speaker in women’s ministry at her local church, where she shares the heart and love of God with multiple generations of girls and women. Jennifer is a wife of 10 years and a mom of 3 beautiful children. She completed her degree in Human Services, using it as a Social Worker until a different calling of stay-at-home mom. Jennifer has used her time at home to craft her story of God’s healing over trauma.

Connect with her at: https://walkingrestored.com/

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